“Ah, fill the Cup: what boots it to repeat / How Time is slipping underneath our Feet.” Day 1

Yesterday was a disaster for my plans but was actually a pretty awesome day. I decided begin at the beginning, I began my journey of scriptural and spiritual discovery with the cover pages and introductions to the Book of Mormon. Everything preceding the words of Nephi are so inspired and are a wonderful preface to truly enter into the book and be in the mind space you need to be in.

Unfortunately about that time my wife's visiting teacher's arrived, which made the necessity of my ipod and headphones very clear. There are sweet ladies that are of course always welcome in our home and the cacophony of three women in our tiny apartment would normally necessitate Heavy Metal but Mastadon and Skeleton Witch are not conducive to reading so I had to find some classical music. In true gamer fashion the only classical I have on the ipod are the Halo and Gears of War soundtrcks, so I settled on Halo because of the choir included.

I was inspired to pray before I read the testimonies of the men who set to bringing to our generation. I can't remember the things I asked for or the things I asked about, but my tears flowed as I wept and thought about the men who labored in the dirt and overcame great obstacles to write and translate the words before my eyes.

I settled into bed starting page one, previously this page has loomed ominously before me like an Imperial Star Destroyer, as though the odds were pre-stacked against me. Today I felt as welcome a well placed in-game tutorial. I knew what I was getting into as I have read the first chapter of first Nephi innumerable times before.

Then the bishop called and asked for a meeting and me and my wife Jessica, who had spent next to no time with me during the day watched a show of our we always watch together. One thing after another stacked and I never got past page 5. Tomorrow will be better, I can promise you that.

“Take time to deliberate; but when the time for action arrives, stop thinking and go in.”

As a new year starts and time has gone by with not a bang but a whisper I feel unfulfilled again letting things get past me that was so important to me but somehow got put onto my back burner and forgotten. Things I'm ashamed to mention. How many video games have I played and beaten? I can't tell you, they meant a lot when I played them and the feeling of spending hours and conquering something is a feeling that I really enjoy but is fleeting and just pushes me toward another game to beat and I soon forget that one as well.

This year, I started out by being unemployed and my wife working so we could keep a roof over our heads and food in our bellies, the bills mostly paid. My wife is a hard worker and someone I look up to in her perseverance and light, she is intelligent, outstanding, honestly, loving, sexy woman whom I would surely be doomed without. The Cherry Hills ward of our church has also been extremely kind, understanding and helpful. We received a Christmas present that in turn let us buy some Christmas presents for each other something we weren't able to as well as we have in the past. We have our apartment, our happiness and our health to thank the Cherry hills ward for.

I have been out of work since October 26th with a very brief stint of part time seasonal work at Kohl's, a store I had never even bought anything from as they don't really have any clothes my size, that and the designs on things are a little too "Old Lady" for me. I have recently accepted a position at Verizon Wireless that will start on the 19th of this month and am greatly looking forward to it.

One of my life's goals that I read the Book of Mormon from cover to cover. I am going to be 26 on the 20th of January and have never accomplished this. In a religion that I have been in since I was born, a quarter of a century, I have never read the basis of my faith. I am vowing that from Wednesday January 13th to Monday January 18th I will read the book of Mormon from cover to cover. Each morning I will be posting my progress and anything else that struck my mind or that I found interesting the day before, journaling my progress as I go. Please stay tuned as I, like the fabled bullet, have never made it through 2nd Nephi.